feeling blah and wasted...

So much had happened yesterday and today. I got home at around 5 in the morning from Roma’s birthday bash in her house at Katarungan Village. Grabe. I feel so wasted! I feel like throwing up every hour and a half. Tin-reat kasi ako ni DJ sa Tokyo-Tokyo last night. Kung hindi lang kami bad mood, malamang naubos namin pati yung potato balls and California Maki na in-order niya. Bakit kami bad mood? Kasalanan ko. I don’t want to make this entry look like a novel kaya hindi ko na iku-kwento kung bakit kami nag-away.

DJ contented himself with beer while I drink Baileys, Tequila and San Mig Light. It was already past four when we did get the chance to leave. I remember that I was feeling lightheaded that time but was still in control of myself. When we were about to leave, I felt a feeling of discomfort in leaving them. Na-miss ko kasi sila. I really missed the good times. Pero ayos lang. I’m having not just good, but the best times of my life with DJ. Now that I found the best, I won’t have to settle myself with the second best. Ü ( Keso… :p)

We slept for a few hours in our own houses. We plan to meet at Tropical at 9 or 9:15 a.m. pero dahil puyat nga kami at 5am na kami naka-uwi, hindi na kataka-taka kung mala-late kami ng gising. And for that, hindi naming napanood ‘yung most awaited DUP play of the year, ang TATARIN. Thank God, nare-schedule kami on August 6 at 3pm to watch the play we thought we've missed.

Wala na kaming magawa sa UP kaya we just watched King Arthur at Rob Metro East. Okay lang naman though hindi siya consistent sa mga stories na nabasa ko about King Arthur. I gotta admit, ang hot ni Guinevere. Anyway, alcohol was still inside our system kaya inantok at natulog kami sa movie house. (We slept together! Yey! Hehe...Ü Dream on. Hahaha Ü)

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero SARAP is my word for the day. Hehe. Pagpasensyahan na. Para akong may hangover of some sort. Hindi muna ako iinom uli.

Bakit SARAP ang word for the day ko? Kasi...
-MaSARAP kumain ng KFC BBQ Burger kapag gutom ka.
-MaSARAP pa sanang matulog kaso maSARAP din manood ng Tatarin kaya gumising kami ng around 8.
-MaSARAP ang pizza sa Pizza Hut maski nahulog na.
-MaSARAP matulog ‘pag naïf-feel mo ‘yung body warmth ng katabi mo.
-SARAP ng arroz caldo sa KFC lalo na kapag sinusubuan ka.
-SARAP ng beer kagabi. Ü
-Ang SARAP ng feeling na kasama mo ‘yung mga teammates mo sa ibang lugar, hindi sa tennis court.
-MaSARAP mag-HHWW sa Katarungan Village kapag mga 4am.
-MaSARAP tumawa ‘pag medyo tipsy ka na.
-MaSARAP uminom ‘pag payag si DJ.
-SARAP ng waffle malapit sa Cinema 1-4. *sarcastic*
-SARAP pindutin ng keypads ng Nokia 3210.
-MaSARAP makipag-away sa magulang o sa kahit kanino ‘pag alam mong may ipinaglalaban ka.
-MaSARAP mag-reminisce ng HS friends ‘pag tintingnan ko ‘yung neoprints sa organizer ko.
-MaSARAP ang sampal saken ni Mama kanina. *gnashing my teeth*
-MaSARAP humiga at matulog kapag puyat at pagod.
-SARAP ang word ko for the day kasi, secret!

Sleep na 'ko. Ü

Before kayo matulog, punta muna kayo sa site ni May-i! MaSARAP din do'n! Pwamis! Hehe Ü Hoyst May-i, miss ko na si Zean-Maizer! Hehe... Akin na lang siya... Please? :p


Friday, July 30, 2004
my first entry of FRIDAY FIVE

I'm so glad that Sir Bellarmino allowed me to report about the registers of lawn tennis and not the registers of kayaking. Maski nakapag-kayak na 'ko sa Hundred Islands, iba pa rin kung lawn tennis 'yung ire-report ko. Speaking of tennis, one of my teammates will be celebrating her 21st birthday tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to see my teammates again. Nami-miss ko na sila. Busy-busy-han ako tomorrow pero keri lang kasi I would be spending more time with my dear naman tomorrow evening. Excited na talaga akong mag-bukas! Ü

May pa-uso nga pala ako. Every Friday, I'd be posting five questions from Nicole's book (If... Questions for Teens by Evelyn McFarlane & James Saywell). Wala lang Ü I'll return it to Nix as soon as I'm done with it.

So here's my first entry of FRIDAY FIVE. You could copy the questions in your blog if you want. Ü

FRIDAY FIVE

1. If you were to predict what your generation will contribute to the world, what would you say?
** The development of cellphones and text messaging. Ü

2. If you were to name the person you try to act like the most, who would it be?
** 45% of my Mom's and 55% of my Dad's way of thinking.

3. If you were to name a belief you hold that is different from that of all of your friends, what would it be?
** First, I don't know who my real friends are. Second, we all live in different ideological planes. Panigurado, we all have different stance in life. All of us are unique. Ü

4. If there is one mistake you would like your generation not to repeat, what would you say it is?
** Indulging themselves in premarital sex.

5. If you were to describe the ideal after-school hangout, what would it be like and who would you want to hanging out there?
** As in after class? Hmm. I'd probably stay at a coffee shop with mi novio doing just plain nothing. Actually, hindi naman kailangang coffee shop. Basta any place where I could relax and slightly forget the tremors of having 21 units this sem.

So there. Ü Goodnight now. Ü

Thursday, July 29, 2004
Reena, DJ and I at SM North Ü

Sumakit ang ulo ko dahil sa Eng 102. Ang hirap ng exam, grabe! Kung ‘yung mga nag-aral nga, nahirapan pa, ako pa kayang hindi. Pamatay ‘yung part na kailangan itranslate yung 5 sentences written in Old English into Modern English. Keribells lang kasi nakapag-lunch naman ako with Jen and his guy, Mr. All-white at Beachaus. Nawindang ako sa text ni DJ kanina. Here it goes:

deary, d2 n ako s lrt. Mit tyo mmya.Ü

Bukod sa first time niya akong tinawag na deary *weird*, nagulat ako kasi hindi dapat kami magkikita today. Alam niya na pupunta kami ni Reena sa SM North today. Pasaway talaga. Hehe Ü Pero ayus lang. Nagsukat ako ng mga dress kasi tinanong ako ni Papa kahapon kung bakit hindi ako nagde-dress katulad ni Angelica Panganiban sa Mangarap Ka. Favorite kasi ng Papa ko ‘yun. Ewan ko ba kung bakit! Ü Okay naman pala ang dress saken. Mukha naman akong tao.

Enough of myself, si Jenny Lou naman. Paninindidan ko na ang pagko-chronicle ng love life ni Jen after she and Kiko broke up. Sina Mr. All-White and Mr. Bedan Law-student ang mga boylets ngayon ni Jen. Since dalawa ‘yun, si Mr. All-White ay til-12 noon lamang at si Mr. Bedan Law-student ay from 12noon onwards. Nakakaloka talaga.

Naalala ko tuloy ‘yung panahon na single ako. Hindi ko sila kayang i-meet sa loob ng isang araw. Haggard kasi ‘yung ganon. I assign days for them instead. Sana ganon na lang ginawa ni Jen. Hehe Ü Joke lang…

Hinatid ko si DJ sa bahay nila kaya medyo na-sermonan ako ni Mama ‘pag uwi. Mukhang magkakasakit na naman kasi si DJ. Hay Oh well, kaya lang naman ako pinagalitan ni Mama kasi iniintay niya ‘ko para maturuan ko si Jo sa English. Ngayks. Kala naman ng nanay ko kung sino akong henyo.

Hanggang bukas uli. Paalam. Ü

*sineryoso ko na ang pagta-tagalog. next time, old English naman. hehe. joke lang noh! :p*

Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Sana weekend na Ü
Busog na busog ako sa tulog. As in. Natulog ako ng 7pm kagabi at 9am na ko nagising kaninang umaga. May exam ako tomorrow sa Eng 102. Goodluck saken. Dito lang ako sa bahay the whole day para makapag-aral.

Si Dj naman, medyo ngarag sa dami ng school work niya. Mukhang sa weekend ko pa siya makikita. May date kami on Saturday night and Sunday afternoon. Hehe Ü Sana okay na siya by that time.

Excited na ko mag-weekend. Ü

S.K.L.
Mahal ko na ata si Jay from TV Idol. The first time I saw him, kinanta niya ‘yung Ocho-Ocho in German version. Ang talino diba? Nanalo siya for that. Tapos kanina naman, kinantahan niya si Sandara habang nakaluhod. Hindi na ‘ko manonood uli ng TV Idol. Baka ma-inlove ako sa kanya, mahirap na.

Ito ‘yung kinanta niya kanina:

“Kahit minsan… ay mapansin ako
Malaman mong ika’y mahal at ‘yan ay totoo
‘Wag mong iisiping, nagbibiro akooo
Tunay ang pag-ibig na inaalay sa’yoooo…”

Sweet… Ü


Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Wala. Nothing much happened today. I went home after my class to sleep. Sobrang sakit ng ulo ko. Parang dini-drill. I ate pancit canton and rice. Past 4 pa lang kasi. Hindi pa nagluluto si Mama. Naaliw ako do’n sa product nung thesis ni Jo. ‘Yung banana peelings turned into wine. Ang galing! Amoy wine nga! Basta, ‘pag nagka-anak ako, pag-aaralin ko siya sa RizSci or sa kahit anong science school, maski malayo.

Main discussion sa bahay ang ASEAN exam ni Jo. ‘Pag nakapasa kasi siya do’n, mag-aaral na siya sa Singapore. Pinag-uusapan nila 'yung mga what if's at kung anu-ano pang chuchuvells. A basta, tsaka ko na lang poproblemahin ‘yun ‘pag nakapasa na siya.

Ba-bye na. Matutulog na muna 'ko. Ü


Monday, July 26, 2004
Grrr...
Sinuspend ‘yung class from 12n onwards dahil sa SONA. After our report in Soc Sci 2, I went straight to Mapua to be with DJ. Naaliw ako coz Reena’s also there waiting for his boyfriend. Reena has been my seatmate on some of my English classes. And every after class, nag-bonding kami sa EDUC. Taga-EDUC kasi siya. I find her so kind and conservative. Kanina, nagbago ‘yung tingin ko sa kanya.

I still find her conservative and kind. Pero exag yung pagka-kind niya. Martyr’s the word for her. I’d expound on this more later.

Na-bore kami sa guardpost. As in. Kung magsstay pa kami ng mas matagal do’n, makakabisado na namin ang mga mukha ng mga taga-Mapua. Do’n mo kasi makikita yung mga gwapo, magaganda, at ‘yung mga nagfi-feeling gwapo at maganda. Since hindi naman kami matingin by nature, we decided to go to SM Manila. At least doon, hindi kami ang tumitingin. Kami ang tinitingnan. HeheÜ Tigas!Ü Joke lang ha!

It was time to leave when DJ called me. Medyo kinakabahan si Reena kasi baka daw magalit si Ron, bf niya. I’m nervous as well. ‘Yung boses kasi ni DJ sa phone parang galit. Pero pwede naman akong magpaliwanag kung bakit na-delay ‘yung pagbalik namin sa Mapua. Tsaka alam ko na ‘yung gagawin ko para hindi siya magalit. Mag-is-smile ako and iki-kiss siya tapos magso-sorry. Maliit na bagay lang naman ‘yun para ikagalit niya e.

Pero ‘yung Ron ni Reena, hay nako! Exag mag-react!!! Sinigawan at hinila si Reena. Shet talaga. At binato pa ‘yung cellphone sa harap ng maraming tao. Grr! I don't if h just want to make a scene pero 'yun ang dating saken. Nakakainis! Such a phony!!! Ka-OA-an na 'yun! And he’s been like that for five years! I repeat, FIVE YEARS! Imagine, Reena’s been living in hell for five years now! Grabe! She deserves a monument for that.

Hindi magtatagal saken ang lalaking ‘yun. Hindi siya magtatagal sa mundo dahil mapapatay ko siya. Seryoso. If someone thinks of hurting me physically, please think again. Dahil kung hindi ko siya kayang patayin, ipapapatay ko siya sa tatay, nanay at kapatid ko.

Sana ma-realize nung gagong ‘yun kung ga’no siya kamahal ng friend ko… at higit sa lahat, sana ma-realize niya kung ga’no siya ka-swerte for having Reena on his side for years now. Ba’t ba kasi binubuhay pa ang mga ganong klaseng lalaki? *sad*


Sunday, July 25, 2004
I hate guards! Most of all, I hate people who think they're always right.
After magpagupit ni Jo and Papa, kami naman ni Mama ang lumabas. We went to Robinsons Cainta to buy some school materials at National Bookstore. Ka=imbyerna ‘yung guard do’n. As in! While I was copying the title of Paolo Coelho’s book in my cellphone, sinita ba naman ako ni Manong Guard!

Manong Guard: Miss, bawal kopyahin ‘yan.
Ako: Excuse me?
Manong Guard: Bawal po kopyahin ‘yan.
Ako: Huh? Bawal kopyahin yung title ng libro?
Manong Guard: Opo.
Ako: Ulit. Bawal kopyahin yung TITLE ng libro?
Manong Guard: Opo.
Ako: ANO?? BAWAL KOPYAHIN ANG TITLE NG LIBRO?
Manong Guard: Opo.

I looked helplessly at the girl standing right in front of me. Pati rin siya nagtaka. Gusto ko manapak sa totoo lang. Sinigawan ko ‘yung cashier. Sakto, si Mama na ‘yung next sa line.

Ako: Miss, excuse me. Kailan pa po ba pinagbawal na kopyahin ‘yung title ng libro dito sa National Bookstore?
Manang Kahera: Hindi naman po bawal. Bakit po?
Ako: *tingin sa guard* Narinig mo ‘yun? Ha? *irap*

Kinuha ko ‘yung mga pinamili ni Mama at lumabas.

Kakainis ang mga taong feeling nila sila ang tama. (U)lol! *fuming*


Saturday, July 24, 2004
Long hair goes with long patience.
My Mom and I spent four long hours in the parlor this morning. Kung anu-ano kasing chubabells ang ginawa sa buhok namin. Mama sports a short hair now. Mas bagay sa kanya kasi nakakabata ‘yung gupit niya. Tapos angbpayat na niya dahil sa kaka-jogging nila ni Papa. Ang sexy na niya uli Ü Lalo na nung suot niya ‘yung fitted pants niya na Freego. ‘Yun 'yung favorite ko na pants niya na wish ko lang, meron din ako. Hehe Ü

O, ako naman. I can’t believe na ganito na pala kahaba buhok ko. As in. Sabi ni Mama, mukha na raw akong dalaga. I hate her when she tells me such things. Kasi ang kasunod no’n, sasabihin niya na ‘wag muna ‘ko lalandi, unahin muna ang pag-aaral. Pero thankful ako dahil hindi niya sinabi ‘yun saken kanina. Hindi nasira ang mood ko Ü

Si Ate Vhibz ‘yung unang-unang nakapansin sa buhok ko. Sabi niya, “Jenny, pina-rebond mo?” Sabi ko, “Hinde ah. Shinampoo ko lang ‘yan Ü”

Ok na sana 'yung araw ko kaso hindi nagtetext si DJ. Bakit kaya? :c Sana, ngayong mahaba na ang buhok ko, humaba na rin ang pasensya ko sa lahat. Itetext ko na muna siya. Byers!


Friday, July 23, 2004
Traffic Jam
My DJ impressed me big time today. Effort talaga ‘yung ginawa niya. Medyo naglakad lang naman siya from Katipunan to Shoppersville para daw hindi ako mag-isang maglalakad papuntang Katipunan. At hindi lang ‘yun. Nilibre pa niya ko ng dinner. Nag-MRT kami from Katipunan to Santolan. Naglakad uli from Santolan to Sta. Lucia. At sa wakas, nakasakay din ng jeep papuntang Cainta. This is one hell of a day. Pero keri lang. Naiintindihan ko naman kung bakit walang kasing panget ang araw na ‘to. Hehe Ü At tsaka, malaking pogi points naman ‘yung na-garner niya from my parents Ü

Si Jenny Lou pala, may date today. Okay naman si Mr. All-White. Two thumbs up ang rate ko. Hehe Ü Hindi ko nakita ung depression period kay Jen. When she and Kiko broke up, parang wala lang. Sabagay, maganda naman kasi ‘yung bruha na 'yun. I’m sure it would be easy for her to move on and find a new love. Wish ko lang, maging okay sila ni Mr. All-White coz I like him so much for her.

Eto nga pala ‘yung conversation namin ni Papa habang hinihilot niya ‘yung legs ko pagdating ko kanina.

Papa: Buti na lang may kasama ka pauwi. Alam mo naman kung ga’no kadelikado ang panahon ngayon. Basta, magtapos ka muna ng pag-aaral ha? Masisira lang ang focus mo sa boypren-boypren.

Ako: Shemps naman. *naka-cross finger*

Papa: Tawagan mo si DJ mam’ya. I-check mo kung naka-uwi na.

Ako: Sige, mam’ya. *smile-hanggang-tenga*

Ang babaw ko Ü

I arrived home at around 4pm and went straight to bed. I got a headache from reading Old English in Ma’am Laurel’s class and from taking our first final exam in SocSci. I had an exam in SocSci2 early this morning and I want to think that I did well on that exam. Ang masama, I wasn’t able to answer six items about St. Thomas on the enumeration part of the test. If I had studied my notes last night, I could have aced that exam. Sayang talaga.

Anyway, our group will be discussing Hobbes on Monday. Excited na ‘ko mag-report! Ü My teaching experience at MAPUA has something to do with my confidence in terms of reporting. When you teach, hindi mo namamalayan, one and a half hour ka na palang nagsasalita sa harapan, same as reporting. I hope I could teach again on that school. Pagkatapos ng Masters degree ko, magpapart time ako don. Hehe Ü Sana…Ü

Enough of the future mode, kailangan mag-acad mode muna. Just like what Felai and Francis told me earlier, wala daw muna dapat lovelife dahil nagthe-thesis ako. Bina-balance ko naman lahat. Isa pa, acad mode din naman ‘yung ‘lovelife’ ko kaya keri lang. Ü

I went home with Andy, UP’s one of the best baseball player. Ayun. Kwentuhan tungkol sa kung ano ang bago sa mundo ng varsity. Honestly, I’m no longer interested with what he was saying kasi alam kong hindi matatapos ‘yung usapan namin nang hindi mapapag-usapan ang ex kong mukhang sports. Pero keri lang. Kebs ko naman e ex ko na yun. Manligaw man siya ng iba, wala na akong paki-alam. No more ethical issues to tell and no more pang-kukulam to make. Hehe Ü Ang importante naman, masaya ako ngayon. I can sleep soundly and I have no cares.

Excited na ko mag-Saturday. Sana tuparin ni Mama promise niya. Pero ok lang rin maski hindi. I just have to teach myself not to get my hopes high. Para hindi ako masyadong ma-frustrate. But I can’t help but wonder, ano kayang hitsura ko ‘pag nakalugay na ‘yung buhok ko? Sana maganda pa rin. Hehe Ü Lumayo kayo sa screen, hindi mata-take ng monitor niyo ang kapal ng mukha ko. Hahaha Ü

Good mood ako ngayon. Busog sa tulog e. Walang eepal. Ang umepal panget! :p

Btw, check out Don's site. He's a one of my coolest Ruizian batchmates way back third year high. (Miss you dude!Ü) He's got really cool pics for you to view, so go and visit his site now. As in now na.Ü

i feel so alone today, i don't know why. may exam ako bukas pero hindi pa rin ako nag-aaral. i do hope inspiration will strike tomorrow. mag-eend na 'yung July, wala pa rin akong nagagawa sa thesis ko. hay... na-de-depress ako ng walang dahilan. ang gloomy pa sa labas. ang sakit pa ng puson ko. parang wala pang tama sa araw ko ngayon. hay...

sana makapag-post ako ng maayos na entry later before i sleep. para ganahan akong mag-aral, here's what i found from DJ's email.

happy Ü

How to make a jennifer ursua

Ingredients: 3 parts friendliness 3 parts courage 1 part instinct

Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little emotion if desired!

I just got done reading play_possum's blog and I realized that I shouldn't be insecure with anyone anymore. I've always been the 'always insecure' type. Probably, this was the effect of my past relationship. If your guy leave you for another girl who looks like a hobbit, hindi ka ba ma-iinsecure?

Medyo matagal na rin kami ni DJ in fairness. We've been friends for like four years and we've been together for 11 months now, next month makes a year. Ü Buti na lang hindi kami bestfriends. Madyo cliché na kasi yun. Most of the time, bestfriends-turned-into-lovers relationships don't last that long. (Nobody that I know anyway… Hindi ko nga siya bestfriend, 'kuya' ko naman siya. Hanyeh. Incest yung dating diba? Ü But it's all good. Hindi naman ako nanulot when I got him. Tsaka okay naman yung relationships ng family namin, kaya kung iisipin, okay na talaga.

Teka nga, ba't ba ang senti ko ngayon? Hmmm… Wala lang. Nakasabay kasi naming si Nicole kanina. I'm so happy for her! Pwamis! Grabe, she's already engaged to her boyfriend Robert! Ang saya Ü Parang kailan lang. Hay… Sinabayan pa ng pagpapatugtog ko ng Say You'll Stay at ng pagbabasa ko ng mga saved YM's namin ni DJ. Wala lang Ü Para hindi ako mainggit kay Nicole, kino-condition ko na lang 'yung utak ko do'n sa idea na darating din kami ni DJ sa ganon. Libre naman mangarap a.
So far, wala naman akong nakikitang hindrance. For now, kailangan lang talaga naming mag-aral ng mabuti para may accomplishment na kami sa mga sarili namin. Tsaka na lang uli ako mag-bo-blog 'pag na-achieve ko na 'to. Hehe Ü Exagg…

Nawawalan na ng focus 'tong mga paragraphs ko kasi napapakanta na ko kay Usher. Hehe Ü Sorry. I guess I have to end this here. Btw, May na-realize ako kanina nung nasa tricycle ako pauwi. This should have been the gist of this entry pero as usual, I failed to make it evident here. I've got tons of thoughts in my mind right now. Hindi ko tuloy alam kug sa'n magfo-focus. Sana may sense kahit konti 'tong entry na 'to. Parang puros pagda-drama lang e. Basta. I just realized that nobody would be able to take us away from each other. People who don't like us are not the kind of people we wanted to live with. We take ourselves away from them and we build a world of our own. In that world, I believe, ako lang ang babaeng tinitingnan niya. Hehe Ü At ako lang ang taong mahal niya. That's when you know you have a 'best' friend.

The Unbloggable (Jing's shorter version Ü)

So much has happened today. I don't think I can write all my sentiments here. Kaya nga 'unbloggable e. Hehe Ü Basta, I feel so loved and taken care of today. Too much realization had sunk in. Para saken, those realizations would make us stronger and wiser kaya blessings in disguise na rin yung lahat ng nangyari ngayong araw na 'to. Tao lang naman kasi ako, nagkakamali. At least, nandiyan lang si DJ to guide me all the way. Iba talaga mag-alaga si DJ. Iba. ÜÜÜ

One more point. Sex is just sex. It's making love that is sacred. One's virginity is sacred as well.

Way too tired to explain. I’d better write about it tomorrow and just get some sleep now. But wait, hindi ako makatiis na hindi mag-comment upon reading DJ’s post. Hehe Ü This would be very brief ha. Inaantok na talaga ako.

Natutuwa ako. I very much enjoy reading his post than watching Usher’s MTV of Burn. Seryoso. I couldn’t really decipher what he really feels and thinks at that moment. Pa’no naman kasi hindi na rin ako makapag-isip ng matino non. Nabubwisit kasi ako. Lahat ba talaga ng lalaki matingin? As far as I know, hindi naman e. Gotta comment more on this on my next post.

Sana lang ituloy niya ang pagba-blog para tuloy-tuloy na ang kaligayahan ko Especially now that we decided not to see each other that often. I got so used to having him around all the time. I’m sure I’m going to miss him like hell. :c And like I always say to him ‘may blog naman’. Wish ko lang talaga, mag-post siya everyday.

As for yesterday, my day ended well naman. I’ve been with Jenny Lou, Kevin and Manuel at Katipunan jeep. Sinamahan ako ni Jen and na mag-intay kay DJ sa Big-R. Andon din ‘yung True Faith kaya masaya. Na-hot seat ako for some time. We’re talking about drifting friendships and stuff. I can’t comment much about it. Ni hindi ko nga masagot ‘yung mga tanong nila. Perhaps, I’m way too happy to contemplate on things like that. I’m happy and satisfied on what I have. And I thank the Lord for that.

Tama na muna ang pagco-comment tungkol sa mga ka-friendship-an. May iba pa naman akong pwedeng I-kwento. While we’re on our way to Java republic, nakita namin ni DJ si Tita Len, our high school teacher. The first thing she said when she saw us together was: “Uy! Getting stronger a!”

Wala lang ÜÜÜ

Last night, nagbasa ako ng mga older issues ng TANOD (a tabloid) before ako matulog. Ito pala ang horoscope ko nung June 10.

Scorpio: Kalimutan ang kasalanan ng dating bespren sa kolehiyo. Mahal ka lang niya ng totoo kaya niya nagawa ang bagay na lubos mong ikinagalit sa kanya.

Reaction: Huh? Hehe Ü

Nawala antok ko. Ü

hello guys. nakakalimutan kong i-post dito yung mga pinost ko sa blogspot.nanghihiram lang kasi ako kay dj ng inet card kaya eto. namimiss ko na ang tabulas. hello sa lahat! :D

Thursday, July 15, 2004
Bitch.
My day went just fine. I went to school to attend my 8:30am class and at 10:00am, I went to the University Registrar to pay a fine for my late graduation application. I also went at Miranda Hall not just to check if the comfort room is really good, hehe Ü I was there to confirm if Jo’s materials for wine making is available. That poor kid. Ang daming ginagawa. I don’t think I’d survive in a science school… Whew!

DJ wanted to see me today. Pinagbigyan ko na lang. Hehe. Just kidding. Ü I want to see him too. I’m just not in the mood to travel with him to MAPUA. But what can I do? July 15 ngayon e. :p

We arrived at MAPUA just in time for his 12:00noon class. I spent another one and a half hours reading some texts for CL 100 while waiting for DJ at the guard post. We ate lunch at Tokyo Tokyo (as always) and tried something really horrible! I forgot the Basta! Hangpanget ng lasa!!!! Hehe. Or maybe, we’re not just used to eating such Japanese stuff. Anyway, so much had happened after that that’s worth reading. Ü Hehe. Ü I’m not sure if I could write it all here. I’m also tired myself.

Maybe I’d just have to mention the gist of it all. He called me a bitch when we were near Pureza Station at MRT. Kinukulit ko kasi siya sa mga bagay na hindi daw dapat dinadaan sa joke. I don’t really agree to him but I think he’s just tired or something. He asked for forgiveness. I accepted it. End of discussion. Or so I thought.

Kaso, ‘til we reach Santolan station, nag-sosorry pa rin siya. Exagg na. Alam ko naman na hindi ako bitch, gawd! Or if I am, I'm pretty sure that there are girls more bitch than me. Hehe Ü Kaya either way, ok lang. Hehe Ü Not at all an issue. Bitch. Hahaha Ü

Labsy (ice_yero) is online right now. Wala lang. I missed that guy. Our YM started when he commented about something I wrote on a survey months ago. Actually, I asked permission from him if I could post our YM here or not. Offline na ata siya kaya di na siya nagrereply. Well I think he doesn't mind at all. Catch you again here labsy! :D


ice_yer0: 6. NAME ONE THING THAT EMBARRASSES YOU - when he tells me that I or my hair looks awful...
jennifer_ursua: hahaha...
ice_yer0: labsy, wala lang... i remember that i never said that to you :D
jennifer_ursua: oo nga e.. :D
jennifer_ursua: iba ka labsy...... >:D< i miss you.. :D
ice_yer0: yeah, i miss u 2 :D
ice_yer0: sarap mo ding kakulitan
jennifer_ursua: ang tagal na nating di nagsasama.. i'm really glad we're friends... we're still friends...
ice_yer0: yeah :D
ice_yer0: y'know
ice_yer0: 5-8 years from now
ice_yer0: when we're married (to different people, most probaby )
jennifer_ursua: hahahaha )
ice_yer0: it might be odd to call each other labsy
ice_yer0: )
jennifer_ursua: right right...
ice_yer0: and when we meet together with our spouses
ice_yer0: matatawa na lang tayo...
jennifer_ursua: 'mare' at 'pare' na tawagan natin
ice_yer0: i could picture that already
jennifer_ursua: magnininang ako at magnininong ka diba? diba? :D
ice_yer0: labsy na lang pa rin
ice_yer0: oo
ice_yer0: promise yan
jennifer_ursua: hahahaha ) ang saya naman...
ice_yer0: ninong ninang
jennifer_ursua:
ice_yer0: tapos mga anak natin ma-pipick up yung pangalan natin
ice_yer0: "hi tita labsy )"
ice_yer0: mano po ninang labsy :D
jennifer_ursua: pwede pwede... hahahaha )
jennifer_ursua: cute kaya!
ice_yer0: onga
ice_yer0: i'm kinda excited for those days
jennifer_ursua: hehe.. me too! :D
jennifer_ursua: i hope our spouses wouldn't be jealous or something.. :D
ice_yer0: di yan
jennifer_ursua: dapat nga hindi.. :D

Ang saya diba? :D That's what real friends are. And remember, it's hard to find a 'real' friend, so keep them once you find them. Ü

Wednesday, July 14, 2004
my first eloquent post Ü
I need to unglue myself from the computer ‘cause I’ve been at it long enough this morning and I haven’t done much so far. Nag-brown-out kasi! Kainis! Naudlot tuloy ang pag-aacad mode namin ni Jen. Hehe. Today’s 14th of the month kaya hindi pwedeng ma-bad trip!

As always, when I stay home, I managed to do none of the things I had to do. I was so lazy to open my notes except for my favorite grammar book in English 104. Hehe Ü I was so bored that I took pictures of myself thru my celly and I plan to put it here some time next week.

As for the weather, it was raining. But that has never stopped my parents to go out of the house. For several hours, I was left alone at home and I was bored like hell. But then again, I happen to love the rain ‘cause it makes the surrounding look glorious in an eerie grey light. Ang lamig pa. Sarap sana ng may kayakap. Ü

I chatted with Ria a while ago (my bestfriend wayback grade 6). It was nice getting in touch with her again. I plan to be with her on October since University Games will be held at Cagayan de Oro. Sana malapit lang ‘yung house niya sa venue so I cud be with her even for one or two nights only. And I hope I could be with DJ too. :D Exciting!

I’m so pissed ‘cause I accidentally erased the only picture I love in my phone. :c It’s DJ and Jo’s picture together. Kainis talaga! Oh well, I hope I could get to be with those guys again (hopefully next month).

Need to go now. Jo’s gonna use the computer for his thesis and I’m sleepy as well. Good night folks! :D


my tabulas account [http://tabulas.com/~been_blessed] Friends and foes, I will still maintain my account in tabulas. The rants and ramblings that you’ll be reading in this site will also be at tabulas. I just signed up here because of play_possum. Hehe Ü Curious? Go visit his site. http://play_possum.blogspot.com

Ciao now! :D

Part 1: Basics
1. NICKNAME- jen, jing, jenny
2. SEX - female
3. BIRTHDATE - 12 nov 1984
4. WHERE DO YOU LIVE - sa bahay
6. SHOE SIZE - varies. depende sa sapatos.
7. FIRST CRUSH - 'tonton' was his nickname. forgot his real name though.
8. RIGHTY OR LEFTY - righty
9. WHATS YOUR SIGN - sensuous scorpio! nyaha.. :p
10. WHATS THE FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU - friendly. ngek. friendly daw o. :p
11. EVER BEEN IN LOVE - hyep.
12. PUPPY LOVE - heheÜ
13. HAVE A TATTOO - i don't have
14. CRUSH - Usher and Marc Nelson

Part 2: Foods
1. CHOCOLATE MILK OR HOT CHOCOLaTE - hot chocolate
2. MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING - McDo! :grin:
3. COKE OR PEPSI - coke
4. ROOT BEER OR DR. PEPPER - root beer
5. Black o White? - white
6. MILK/DARK/WHITE CHOCOLATE - dark chocolate.
7. VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE - chocolate
8. CAKE OR PIE - cakes.. yummmm..

Part 3: Pick one
1. MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER - marry a perfect friend turned into lover...
2. CATS OR DOGS - dogs! :D
3. 1 PILLOW OR 2 - two
4. W/ OR W/O ICE CUBES - w/o
5. TOP OR BOTTOM - haha...Ü got nasty thoughts here. sorry...Ü bottom i guess...Ü
6. WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL - sounds like lyrics from a song Summer.
7. SKIING OR BOARDING - haven't tried neither
8. BIKING OR BLADING - biking
9. ROCK/RAP/R&B/PUNK/ALT/SKA/TECHNO/SWING - r&b
10. NIGHT OR DAY - night... coz great things happen at night. hahaÜ
11. GLOVES OR MITTENS - mittens
12. DRESSED OR UNDRESSED - what a question! would anyone really care to know? hahahaÜ
13. BUNK OR WATER BED - i think, water bed's cool!
14. MAKE PLANS OR GO ALONG - go along..
15. TRUTH OR DARE - dare. :evilgrin:
16. MTV OR VH1 - mtv
17. OCEAN OR POOL - pool
18. SHOWERS OR BATHS - baths
19. LOVE OR LUST - love
20. SILVER OR GOLD- gold
21. DIAMONDS OR PEARLS - pearls
22. PENCIL OR PEN - pen
23. SUNRISE OR SUNSETS - sunsets
24. BLIND OR DEAF - i'd rather be deaf

Part 4: Favorites
1. COLOR - red
2. NUMBER - 7, 12 and 14
3. SUBJECT - English 199. :yeah right:
4. SHOE BRAND - rusty lopez
5. SPORT TO PLAY - lawn tennis
6. DRINK - mule, baileys, water
7. ANIMAL - puppy
8. HOLIDAY - birthday
9. FAVORITE LINE FROM A MOVIE - 'so you love me or not?'- from Spiderman's MJ.. heheÜ
11. MOVIE - riding in cars with boys, the four feathers, dead poets society, gladiator
12. CHILL PLACE - Java Republic
13. FLOWER - heheÜ tulips!
14. PERFUME - none. im into colognes.

Part 5: Future
1. HOW MANY KIDS - one boy and one girl. that makes two! :D
2. COLLEGE - up diliman
3. JOB - i don't have an idea at all. poor soul
4a. WHAT DOES YOUR IDEAL GF/BF LOOK LIKE - usher? hahaÜ that would be unfair to DJ. basta someone neat and someone who has a clean neck! :fetishÜ: i'm really not after any physical attributes but someone which has an extraordinary appeal would be nice. hahahaÜ
4b. HOW DOES S/HE ACT - he should act his age and he should be noble at all times..

Part 6: Would you?
1. MOVE ANYWHERE - anywhere with him. anyeh
2. DYE YOUR HAIR - nope. no need. :D
3. MEET ONE FAMOUS PERSON - yep.
5. NAME ONE PERSON YOU LOVE - DJ's name is worn-out already kaya palitan naman natin. my answer is 'Jonathan'
6. NAME ONE THING THAT EMBARRASSES YOU - when he tells me that I or my hair looks awful...

DO YOU?
7. Like school?- love it! :D
8. LIKE TALKING ON THE PHONE - not really...

the ideal boy.
1. Importante ba looks nya?
- not at all
2. Ang height:
- should be taller than my brother
3. Type of food:
- seafoods sana... pero okay lang kung hindi
4. Kailangan ba mayaman?
- nope.
5. Matalino?
- yep. a must-have quality
6. May respeto?
- dapat. at dapat MALAKI ang respeto.
7. Seryoso sa buhay?
- ayos lang. just not too serious to make our lives so boring...
8. Sport nya?
- basta makakasabay saken mag-jog, solve na! :D
9. Dapat ba nagkikita kayo everyday?
- nope. kailangan ma-miss niya 'ko at ma-miss ko rin siya, para mas masaya!
10. Shud call or text you?
- not every single day. kaso ma-text siya e. may magagawa ba 'ko? heheÜ
11. Dapat ba may abs?
- hindi. mas astig kung beer belly!
12. Pierce?
- wag na lang, please? :c
13. Sweet ba dapat?
- no need. i could make lambing everytime naman e. heheÜ
14. Jealous?
- ayos lang. it makes me feel loved somehowÜ wag lang yung exag! hindi na nakakatuwa 'yon.
15. Shud smoke?
- social smoking lang ang allowed.
16. Shud drink?
- dapat. or else, walang sasalo ng tagay ko. patay. hahahaÜ
17. Mr. popular or ordinary?
- ordinary, para parehas lang kami...
18. Good attitude or Good looks?
- shemps good attitude! it just so happened that i have both! nyaha..
19. A gentleman?
- must be. someone who's sweep me off my feet.
20. Accept you?
- of course.
21. Make you cry?
- ayos lang. it's part of loving anyway.
22. Use you?
- may KARMA naman. it's his poor soul that would suffer. not mine's.
23. Impress you?
- a must.
24. Give everything to you?
- i don't need everything. i just need one thing - his love - and i'll be fine. hanyeh. keso!
25. Sweetest thing you want him/her to do 4u?
- you wouldn't spoil it here, would you?

Q's about school stuff..
01. Lamest excuse for being late?
...woke up late coz I got sick last night.

02. What do you do when the lecture is boring as
hell?
Doodle.

03. What do you do/where do you go when you cut
class?
Go to MAPUA or eat lunch somewhere.

04. Have you gotten yourself dead wasted on one
of those "?college?" parties?
Haha.. Yeah, once.. in a team party at Tapika.

05. Picked up a vice?
Not in this lifetime.

06. How bout a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I do have one.

07. How many times have you done something
illegal on campus?
i lost count... but i was caught only once. lucky me. heheÜ

08. Professional crammer or always prepared?
A self-proclaimed crammer.

09. People person or anti-social?
am a people person.

10. Think of the one professor who loved making
hell out of your day. If you were given a
chance, would you rather "befriend" him to
assure you of a good grade or kick his a$s?
For the reason that I'm darn kind, I'd choose the former. Wehehe.

11.College soundtrack?
U.P. naming mahal... hahaÜ

12. Class/es you enjoyed the most?
Hum2, CW 100 and Film 100. :D

13. One important lesson you learned OUTSIDE the
classroom:
God exists.

14. Classmates, friends who made a difference:
DJ would be one of hundreds...

15. Lastly your course and alma mater?
BA English Studies--UP Diliman


sino sa mga friends mo ang....
= pinakamatanda =
-> si edwin
= pinakabata =
-> si borge, bro ni nic
= pinakamabait =
-> marami e.
= pinakamatalino =
-> marami kami. haha.
= pinakamadaldal =
-> si jenny lou siguro. pag walang sakit
= pinakatahimik =
-> james.
= pinakamakulit =
-> marami sila. hehe.
= pinakaisip-bata =
-> si karen dati, pero hindi na ata ngayon.
= pinaka-friendly =
-> si Volts!
= pinakamatulungin =
-> si lex.
= pinakamagastos =
-> si dj
= pinakamagaling kumanta =
-> ogie mariano
= pinakamagaling sumayaw =
-> angel bibit
= pinakasweet =
-> si dj ko. nyaha.
= pinakathoughtful =
-> nanay ko. araw-araw siya thoughtful! hehe.
= pinaka-touchy =
-> magagalit si dj pag ibang pangalan nilagay ko dito. hehe. Dan Joel
= pinakacute =
-> tough choice bet nara and pam
= pinaka-finesse =
-> si Ren tsaka si Estee siguro
= pinakasegurista =
-> kapatid ko
= pinakasensitive =
-> ako. care mo?
= pinakaseloso/selosa =
-> .....
= pinakamalakas mang-asar =
-> si gerald
= pinakapikon =
-> hehehe. you know who you are.
= pinakaclose mo ngaun =
-> shi dee jey
= pinakanasasabihan ng problema
-> si dj
= Pinaka-open sa buhay =
-> ako and si jen!
= pinakamasikreto =
-> mga lalaki...
= pinakamagaling mag-advice =
-> roma, anna, kim
= pinakamoody =
-> ako? :gosh:
= pinakabansot =
-> no comment.
= pinakamatangkad =
-> ung Batman ni Martha! tsaka si Cervantes siguro.
= pinakamatakaw =
-> lawn tennis team
= pinaka-talentado =
-> Imma.
= pinacorny magjoke =
-> secret. yoko maka-offend.
= pinaka-masarap kausap =
-> dj. (di nga? )
= pinakasexy =
-> ako. hahaha. easy lang. wag ma-iinsecure. mayabang lang talaga ako.
= pinakadaring =
-> pass.
= pinakacool =
-> lahat kme except for ..... cool!
= pinakaunderstanding =
-> si dj! walang tatalo!
= pinakamaganda/Gwapo =
-> ako. survey ko to kaya walang aangal! haha..Ü
= pinakamatagal mo ng barkada =
-> jenny lou
= pinakalapitin ng bOYS =
-> pam!
= Pinakaunang nagka bf =
-> ria/claudine.sino ba nauna?
= Pinakaunang nagka gf =
-> kung si claudine ung answer sa previous question, si t.g. ung sagot dito..
= Pinakamahaba ang buhok =
-> si marina. este si martha or si nara.
= Pinakamaganda ang buhok =
-> si krystle momonja. "sumusunod... sa galaw mo..."
= pinaka kikay =
-> roma
= pinakajolly =
-> si marco siguro
= pinakamahirit =
-> rap! title na niya to. wala ng aagwa ng pwesto niya.
= Pinakaiyakin =
-> ako.
= pinakaresponsible =
-> ang CAL Student Council menos ako.
= pinakafrank =
-> lex and felai. dynamic duo na yan.
= pinakaartistic =
-> manuel
= pinakamartir =
-> trono ko to dati, but i'm martyr no more. si Ana Paras na lang! hahahaÜ
= pinakaartistahin =
-> si sunshine dizon, si nara, si ogie, tsaka si Imma.

Ano ang...

1. Latest realization mo???
-dapat hindi ko inaway yung manyak sa katips jeep kahapon dahil pwede niya akong abangan sa katipunan at patayin.

2. Ngpapaganda ng araw mo???
-ang good morning text ni dj.

3. dpt gwin pg nalulungkot???
-i-share sa blog ang lungkot. http://tabulas.com/~been_blessed

4. nvr mong gagawin sa friend mo???
-ang mang-agaw ng boyfriend.

5. ayw n ayw mong gwin sayo ng friend mo???
-no comment

6. pinkamahal na gift nabigay mo???
-secretÜ

7. moto mo about LOVE???
-Love is zero.

8. dpt gawin pag nabasted (4 guys); pag
nireject ang beauty mo (4 gurlz)
-ireject siya sa friendster! hahaha... bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan panget!

9. pinaka-matnding kalokohang ngawa mo sa
skul???
-hnd pwede sabihin.baka ma-expel ako.

10. Gsto mong itawag sa yo kung ikaw ang
masusunod????
-Jen at Bhe (tawag lang to saken ng parents ko e)

11. dahilan kung bakit di nagsasawa ang
pilipino sa kanin???
-kasi nakakasawa ang tinapay... (i-connect niyo na lang )

12. gagawin mo pag kamukha mo yung most wanted
na kidnapper????
-wala.

13. pangarap mong summer get-away trip????
-pumunta sa beach kasama yung isang taong namimiss ko na.kami lang dalawa ha.walang eepal na peyrents.

14. bagay na hinding hindi mo
tatanggihan???
-hehe.Ü

15. Masayang libangan kapag umuulan???
-maligo sa ulan habang kumakanta ng Rain ni Nyoy Volante. here goes the lyrics: "rain rain please don't go away... i have her in my arms, let her hold me and make me stay..."

16. isang bagay na pinagiipunan mo nang husto???
-ipon? what's that?

17. ggawin mo sa susunod mong birthday???
-magsimba.naks! :D

18. hndi mo makayanan o matagalan???
-same as felai's, mga hindi ko ka-wavelength..at mga taong conceited at self-centered.

19. Gusto mong panoorin sa sine???
-King Arthur

20. gusto mong isigaw ngayon, as in now na!???
-Sana mag-August na!!!!!!

21. sino nagbigay ng survey na to sayo????
-nakuha ko kay gem na nakuha naman niya kay fewai na girlfriend ni... heheÜ joke lang.

22. sa nagsend ng survey, ano mase-sei mo???
- hoyst gem! penge naman ng 4% ng puti mo!!

24. at ano naman ang mssbi mo sa survey na to???
- wala naman. naiilang ako magtagalog.


how well do u respond to complex questions?
Message: Post niyo na lang kapag may sagot na kayo! ingat
kayo...mind boggling questions ang mga itech...

1. Kung magkaroon ng sunog sa building, anong
floor ang canteen?
= sa ground floor siguro. hinuha lang ha... Ü

2. Kapag nilaslas ang bag mo habang natutulog ka
sa bus, ano kaya ang panaginip ng manong
konduktor tuwing gabi?
= how will i know? lech!

3. Nakapasok ka sa Star Circle Quest, bakit ka
nagpauto?
= ngi....sila ang nagpauto!--correct ka jan felai! hehe...

4. Kung matigas ang katawan ni Rainier kapag
sumasayaw and you find it funny, how do you rate
yourself?
= in dancing? mas malambot at mas sexy ako kay rainier noh! hehe..

5. Nauso ang pork barrel lately. Paano ka bumile
ng karne ng baboy sa isang chubby na tindera?
= "manang, pa-buy ng pork..." --hahaÜ

6. Kapag nagpasa ka ng chainletter sa isang
kaibigan, gaano ka kasigurado na tama ang hati
ng buko pie na binibili mo?
= pano kung walang hati yung buko pie? hehe

7. Kapag nakialam ka sa love life ni Madame
Rosa, bagay na kaya sayo ang lucky color mo?
= basta walang paki-alamanan ng love life dahil bagay na bagay saken ang lucky color ko: red. hehe... mas malabo pa ung sagot ko kesa sa tanong...

8. Ano ang mas malaki, butas ng karayom o butas?
= yung butas. kasi pag yung butas ng karayom, pag pinasukan ng sinulid, hindi lumalaki, yung ibang butas, nage-expand... parang donut! wag sana green ang maisip...

9. Paano mo maliligtas ang mundo sa cavities
= mangongolekta ako ng maraming maraming sea shells para sa aking Colgate commercial!

10. If x is equal to y, what is the problem
inside the parenthesis?
= that might be a einstein's problem. (labo! hehe...)

ayoko na. mas malabo pa ko sa tanong

if i were a ___, i'd be a ___ (pretty neat)
Message:

If I were a day of the week, I'd be:
Wednesday. Reasons: (1) Library Day; (2) Tennis day; (3) No classes at UP

If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be:
a tv with cable. i'm that diverse you know. nyehe.

If I were a liquid, I'd be:
water. nothing beats water in terms of nutrients.

If I were a clothing, I'd be:
a fitted jeans. (jeans) so masculine yet (fitted) so feminine...

If I were a flower/plant, I'd be:
tulip, coz it got no thorns to harm anyone

If I were a season, I'd be:
summer, para always tennis weather...

If I were a mythical creature I'd be:
a unicorn. para naman once in my life, maputi ako. hahahaÜ pwede, pwede...

If I were a color, I'd be:
red.

If I were a sound, I'd be:
ctrl+G in YM. wala lang ako maisip.

If I were a movie, I'd be:
Mona Lisa Smile

If I were a food, I'd be:
seafood

If I were a material, I'd be:
a photo album

If I were a taste, I'd be:
sweet and delicious. heheÜ (TokyoTokyo)

If I were a word, I'd be:
"dear"

If I were a body part, I'd be:
the heart

If I were a facial expression, I'd be:
a smile

If I were a shape, i'd be:
a circle.

If I were a number:
id be 12.

If I were an animal/insect:
id be a scorpion...

If I were an instrument, I'd be:
a guitar

If I were a place, i'd be:
near the sea